Getting a little personal in today’s blog post. If you know me personally, you know that since middle school, I’ve suffered from anxiety and depression. For years, I tried to hide it because I was embarrassed and convinced that people would judge me because I had a “mental illness.” But lately I’m like fuck it, you know? Like I can’t help the fact that I have a couple screws loose. KIDDING. lol But really I think as a whole, we all really need to talk about anxiety and depression more. Maybe if we did, people would feel more safe coming to family members, friends, or even a professional more.
When my life is more stressful and unpredictable, I’ve noticed my anxiety and depression gets way worse. I mean that makes sense. Like in middle school when I first began getting panic attacks, it was BAD. It also wasn’t a topic that anyone really knew anything about or talked about, so my teachers and family thought I was faking it and just didn’t want to go to school.
Once I got on some anxiety medicine, it got way more manageable. I never really had too many issues with it in high school or college, until my last year in college. I think this was due to the fact that I had no clue what I wanted or was going to do after college. My anxiety somehow convinced me that I was going to graduate college and be homeless forever. I mean that’s just how annoying anxiety is, ya feel me?!
Once I got a job and settled into Vegas, it’s gotten a lot better. However, when it gets bad and I started getting more panic attacks, there’s a couple things I make sure to do so it’s easier to manage.
Get out of the house. Most people think when they have a panic attack, it’s better to stay in bed, sleep, and watch Netflix, but honestly I find that when I do that, my anxiety and depression gets worse. So, I always make sure to get myself ready and go out and do something like shop, get my nails done, go for a ride, or even a walk. Then later on, I’ll come home and watch Netflix on the couch for the rest of the night and go to sleep early.
Do something you love and that relaxes you. This goes along with #1. Just find something you love to do. Everyone needs that little creative outlet or fun thing they can do to get their mind off work, family issues, etc.
Everyone’s panic attacks are different, but mine are always where I have trouble breathing, I get annoyed, and I get confused (kinda like an out of body experience…aka worst thing every). When this happens, I always stop and just say where I am and what I’m doing over and over again. It may seem like a weird thing, but it helps ground me and forget about whatever I’m getting anxious about.
I’m totally NO professional, but these are things that I’ve always done with feel a panic attack coming on and I know other people do too. If you’re suffering from anxiety/depression, I really hope these give you a little comfort!!